Wew!

Wew!

What a day today was! It wasn't such a bad day actually. Couldn't believe I wanted to skip school. Woah if I did, I'll be wasting precious cash on an MC. I was dreading econs because I haven't done any work but it turned out to be alright. Teacher didn't check on work so thank god.

The most interesting lesson of the day turned out to be lit. You wouldn't believe it if I told you! We were watching a film adapted from our text, "The Handmaids Tale" and really... Err how to put it short. Hmm anyway, look it up wiki and you'll probably get the plot. Let me try to shorten it, I'll tell you the better parts. There's this "ceremony" in the story where it really is sex but with three people instead. So yer, they had this part in the film... However, they only filmed the top half of them having sex. (Though in the end they ended up filming them whole body but it wasn't much anyway.) BUT the best part was the one the lady who got F__ked went hysterical and started stripping out all her clothes and opened the window. THEN we got a glimpse of her boobies! (Nothing much really...) EVERYONE in the lecture hall was laughing like nuts!

We got to say the F___ word in a poem we were reading last time and now... Porn? Wow... Literature SURE is interesting... I

got out of the lecture theatre feeling a bit restricted in my pants somehow... I wonder why...

POP (pursuit of passion) was BORING. Only 6 of us from class anyway. Naturally 0743B did their thing. We left halfway!

Got home and did my EoM. Felt amazed I actually did and completed it. *Pats back* well done nick... YES finally tomorrow will be the last day of lessons before the holidays! Can't wait! Going to sharpen my shooting skills now! Bye!



Cough Cough
Restricted huh...

Another Day In Hell

Another Day in Hell

Woke up late again. By the time I got ready for school it was 9.35am already. SO I amde up my mind to miss school liike I did the other time. Purposely walked slwoly to school hoping to NOT reach there by 9.50. Mmm got there alittle earlier than I wanted but oh well. Decided to sit it out and waste time. Called home but mum insisted me on going to school. BUMMER. I might as well go to school on time and NOT have to run. All sweaty and stuff...

In school now in the library. Planning to skip the morning's first 2 lessons. Sgihs... Three more days to go before holidays. Seems so looong. Frigging hate school. I checked the poly courses yesterday. Really keen on Pychology. Very interesting. I think I meet the courses requirements and I was kinda happy until one of my poly friends told me that they only took in 40 students this year. I was like. WHAT THE F---?! There it goes... Down the drain. Man... Then I just closed my eyes and started to think. What if i put psychology as my first choice but I don't make it... What then? AM I going to waste another yaer in this school? Should I start doing something now JUST in case I can't enter my course? I started to think a lot. And I realised I really should start preparing for the summer test and make sure I have backup.

SHIT

Sighs... Well I followed my secondary school friend and fellow DX clan mate to sim lim square yesterday to get his CS game so he can FINALLY play in a proper server. We had a few rounds of CS in a lan shop with heelim and his friend. Got them hard! DX clan is good! You watch out peoples! LOL. Sim lim square.. my god. It was all IT IT IT. I love that place! It was Amin's and mine first time there. Awesome experience. Was so cool! Went to a few shops to look for the game and they had different prices. OBVIOUSLY we went for the cheaper one. The nice thing was, the dude in charge of the store gave Amin a discount when he didn't even ask for one. It was like... "For you 28." (Originally it was 29.90) Then I smacked my forehead. GEEZ, we could've gotten it cheaper if we tried to haggle! Damn we're noobs. But hey it was fun anyways. I also realised that I like to spend a lot of money. When I left the house, I had 30 in my pocket. When I got home, I was left with 6. OMG. Most of it was spent on LAN gaming. But still, I was shocked at how much I could spend at a go. I always thought I was thrifty...

Still have 40 mins to go... Gonna bumm it out.



Indecision

Salvation

Salvation

The holidays are coming! The holidays are coming! Prepare yourself men! Clear your tables of clutter! Hook up your PC to the nearest power point! Get ready a comfortable chair and have drinks and food near you! We shall battle terrorists for days on! WE SHALL!!

Haha! Yess four more days before the holidays come! But damn, sure is short though. Only a week. BOO HOO HOO! Sucks. I haven't touched any work at all for a long time. Dad put up this stupid broadband usage schedule thingy right in front of my desk. (Have I mentioned this before?) Its super annoying. At first I thought it was going to be ok. At least I'll have time to do work. But then, when the time comes for him to switch off the router, he switches it off FIVE MINUTES early! What the hell? THE SCHEDULE dammit! The schedule! Follow it! Aargh! I can't stand looking at that schedule. It even has a quote on it. "Never mistake online activity as achievement." WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?!

Sighs. Never mind... I just heard from my clan leader (for Counter-Strike), Dexter, that we're going to have our first ever clan match!! OMG! That's so cool! I was so pumped!! AND, its going to be against one of the best CS clan online! r][p! RIP. OMG OMG OMG. How how how?! And I heard also that one of my super pro online cs friend ALSO has decided to join our clan. Siner! He's my personal CS trainer (or sensei as he rather me call him). How wicked is that?! I'm still so excited now... Wew!

Ok anyway, CS aside. I haven't seen Cass since friday. Even on friday, saw her only for a short while. Bummer. Man holidays please come sooner! Wonder how's she faring now. No more Internet at home. No more maple. I'm sure she'll feel as if she might be better off dead without maple fuelling her life. (acks maple... *Pukes*) ^^ Hope she finds a job soon so she won't be wasting time at home.

Damn, got lit work to do. Sighs. Should I? Should I?

AARGH.



What a retard.

Life... Is nuts.

God, days past by so quickly. Soon another week will be gone and we'll be left with 4-5 weeks before the mid course exams are upon us. SIGHS. JC life sure is fast paced. BUT I guess complaining won't be helping me much huh. GIVE ME A MIRACLE SOMEONE! I miss secondary school life...

Cass... Poor her! Not going to well with her family. Wish I could do more to help her. So soon or rather from today onwards, she won't be attending school anymore. Anyways I think her parents are kind of unreasonable. After the first three months she has decided to go poly instead but her parents insisted that she MUST go to JC. I mean I understand the part that it'll be easier to be admitted in Uni but then, if she's forced against her will, won't that be worse? Now, her mum's infuriated that she wants to quit school and so, wants Cass to find a job within a FRIGGING day (which is so impossible) and relieve her of half her job's salary. My god. Which mother would do that? She even banned Cass from touching the computer... That's evil. Way to evil...

Well, I hope she's doing well. Tried my best to keep her happy whenever I'm with her! Cass, don't worry too much! I'm here for you and so are your friends! You can do it! Believe in yourself! I do!

I guess everyone will have problems. I have this stupid econs question sitting right in front of me and I'm thinking... Should I? Shouldn't I? "Focus Nick focus!" That's what Cat says anyways... aargh! So hard! Even thought of skipping school tomorrow. No! Cannot! Sighs. Skipped too many things.

WHAT THE F___'s wrong with me?!



Do you know...
Do you know what it feels like?

Life.Crumbling.

I'm so tired of school. Tired of endless test. Tired of everything.

Lay me down to sleep endlessly. I pray. End this torment.

Crying it out I feel like...



leave me be...

Tiresome.Bothersome.

Tiresome.Bothersome.

So very tired. Very very tired. My eyes... I look like a panda. Must be all that Hello Panda! I've been consuming. Finally got to me. Urgh.

Woke up feeling all frustrated and stuff. Couldn't believe that the weekends was all over so soon. Celebrated grandma's birthday over at my place. Mum cooked up a storm! Plenty of food brought over. I love the fudge the most! If only they were dipped in chocolates. That'll be perfect! Mmm. Well finally joined a CS Clan. DX. Nice clan! Didn't regret joining it. Has a great Clan Leader too. Dexter. He's real smart. From Raffles and all. But is very modest and friendly. We have our own webpage too! Do visit if you're interested in a clan! Its www.dx-cz.com.tk Very nice! Revamped and all.

Sunday. Boring day. I called off maths tuition. Partly cause i've got work to do for monday and also because I've barely touched my homework. I feel tons guilty though. Been putting off for weeks. That's all I'm good at. Sighs... Must get to it soon. I'm at a crossroad now. Stuck in the centre. I've neither decided to head for poly nor stay in JC. Undecided. A dangerous thing. A man must make and stick with his decision. I think I'm just scared. Scared of making the wrong choice. Scared of what'll happen if I do. Parents keep going on about how expensive poly will be. Not that I have no clue but... Oh well. Also how I'll waste a year. I don't see how exactly a year can mean so much. At most I'll marry at a later age? (But isn't that what everyone in Singapore is doing?) It all boils down to whether I can support my parents or not... As I found out. My dad says he probably can't keep funding me for every semester if I am in poly. I understand, but I'll probably go work part time too to make ends meet. Not that selfish anyways.

So yea, this morning. Terrible. I was so angry against everything. I was literally bristling with anger. I felt I could've bitten anyone's head off in the morning if they managed to piss me off. I felt so much anger and frustration towards school, the lessons, the teachers, classmates. I don't know why. Just felt that way. Doesn't exactly mean I HATE HATE my classmates. They're nice people and all. I don't know...

It's going to be a bad bad week. Didn't understand a SHIT for econs... As usual. Didn't do History homework. Probably going to flunk my GP test. (I had no clue there was one anyways. Plus left an eight mark question blank.) THEN, just when I thought the day couldn't get any worser than this, I just found out there was a Lit test in the evening from 5 to 7 pm. NUTS! Aargh. I wanted to let it all out that time. I wanted to free myself from the earth. I wish I had wings. I really want a pair of beautiful wings... Sighs. In the end, I skipped Lit Test. I think I've got a pretty good excuse. "Oh sorry! I went home to sleep for a while because the test started at 5. But I somehow overslept! sorry! I'll do it later if you like."

Tada, master of excuses I am. Sighs. Well still have MORE test to go. Can't possible run away from all of them. CRAPORAMA.


The tests keep coming...
When will I stop drowning...

On That Day

On That Day

Woke up, played a bit of CS the got ready to go to parent's friend's open house. They were all vegetarian! Sweet eh? The barbecue was all vegetarian too. Imagine that! Bet you guys have NEVER ever been to one before. I think that was my first too! There was tons to eat! Very delumptious too. The sweet and sour "pork" somehow DID taste like pork. Yummy.

Cass's birthday celebration was fun! For me at least. ( I don't know what your standard of fun is...) We met up at her place first. Parents dropped me off at her house. OK, now, this is something new for me. The parents dropping me off bit. Perhaps, they are starting to accept the fact that I have a girfriend? Slowly slowly... Well it's been almost 5 years already. But anyways, kinda cool!

Bought her this miniature water dispenser thingy at causeway. Pretty useful I think. For her. CASS drink more water please! Especially now since you have that thingy I got you. Got More Than Words to wrap it up for me. And in the end, it was this huge wrapped up thing. Pretty big. Almost up to my waist from the floor up. Felt somewhat weird lugging it around in causeway. But oh well! At least she liked it! Went to catch Rush Hour 3 afterwards. MY GOD, it was hilarious! We were laughing 80% of the time! Serious! Chris Tucker was soooo funny. My god, hope rush hour 4 comes out. Chan had his moments too. Lol. Though he wasn't fighting much. Age caught up with him. But damn, he and chris sure make a pair! NG was good too. LOL. I wonder how it's like to be around Chris Tucker!?

All of us decided to head back to where Cass's place was and played pool. Think it was my... What, third time playing it? Yea. Felt kind of retarded aiming and shooting. Wow, but Casslyn... My god. She was pro! For the first few round that is.. (hah! I was just warming up Cass!) She was good! Her shot was strong. Aim was straight. Suprised me! And she said she only played it twice... RIIIGHT. The pros... They always lie.

The day ended nicely! (Real niiiice. *wink*) Heh heh. Mmm people should have TWO birthdays. What fun!



Birthday Bash!!

Littlest Things

Littlest Things

Met upon a temporary road block in my love life. One of which rarely appears. It was one which I should've seen coming! Oh how could I not see it. It was right smack in front of me. Sighs. Nick Nick... It's time to open your eyes boy!

My god. I should have realised how sensitive the male counterparts are. Like a rose perhaps? Mmm yea. All the little things seems to add up to the overall effect when you're in love. A little bit of this, a little bit of that. Here and there. Just do those and I'm sure we 2 will be happy. Darn, took me long enough to realise it. Every little thing counts in love! I'm so sorry Cass. Forgive me. I know I know!

Ooo, tomorrow's Cass's birthday! Excellent! The thing I wanted to get for her, I hope its still there! Acks, knew I should have gotten it earlier. Yea why didn't I. *scratches chin* NICK YOU ARE AN ASS. Aargh, must go to causeway in the morning to check it out. Worst case scenario: find something just as nice! Hope its still there. Please let it be there please let it be there... Think we (cass and friends and me) are decided to go ice skating! Woo! Haha. At the end, I'm sure there'll be tons of sore bums. Need a massage Cass? Lol!

Just got back from hanging out in Malaysia with my family. It was not bad. Had quite a bit to see. Stuff to buy too. Sis reaped the most out of the whole thing. All those girly things, an earphone, Stitch toys and whatnot. (she's a stitch fanatic my sister is.) Spent more than 20 bucks I think. What did I get? Haha. I bought three games for my PS2. Call of Duty 3, FFXII, and one more I can't seem to remember. Hmm its all good games though. All pirated but! I thought it'll be easy to get through the customs since I've already done it before, which I did by taking out the discs from their packets and stuffing it into the deep pockets of my baggy jeans. It didn't sound the sensors last time. However, I wasn't so luck this time though.

When I made it past the sensors and was picking up my bag, when I suddenly noticed that there was HELL A LOT of police around. I picked out a guard carrying an MP5 even. Aargh. I suddenly felt kinda awkward walking. Felt that maybe the discs in my pockets were obtruding a bit? JUST as I was about to make it past the gates...

"Come here boy" said, no not said, ORDERED one of the elder female officer.

She patted me down. (NEVER in a million years would I imagine that I would be PATTED down like those criminals in the crime shows by a police officer. NEVER!) And she asked me to remove the discs in my pockets. I removed it. Of course I did. I told her it was my games. She got me to remove my bag and started to go through it. I didn't hide anymore in my bag. I only buy maximum THREE discs. When she was done, she returned my discs and told me I should leave the discs in my bag and declare it when it goes through the scanner. Much safer that way. At most they'll just give me a warning that's all. PHEW. I was pretty cool about it though. The female officer was a nice lady! Thank my lucky stars!

So got back, dead tired and sis is bugging to use my lappy. I will go and bathe. (and masturbate while I bathe so sis will be able to use my com longer. ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU WANT JOY.)

AND HELL NO, I'm not going to masturbate.. YOU SICK PEOPLE...


Patted down... Sighs

Dilemma

Dilemma


Aargh, I want to join a Clan in Counter Strike. A clan is like a community of members together. So yea my problem is, WHICH ONE?

Ok here's a breakdown of each clan.
First we have the -----> =D-X= Clan

Umm this clan's pretty new. Was made official on 7th of July 2007. 777. The good thing about this clan is that, its new and doesn't have much members, so I guess it'll be easy to get recruited. I was already asked to join before and I'd probably be the 3rd member to enter or something. It's a pretty friendly clan too. The admin, Dexter, (lol nice name) is from Raffles (woot!) and he's really nice person. The tag's pretty cool too. Here's what it'll look like with my IGN.

=D-X= [N]ick My Knickers!!


Second we have the -----> [StOrM] Clan

This clan's been around for quite some time now. For five years already? Since 2002. And they're homepage is pretty nice. It's all official looking with a "Clan Vision." Very much like a company with a vision. They've got some pretty good players in there. Storm is established and has quite a lot of members. 97 now I think. Most of the people there are friendly and nice. Its a nice "stormie family"! Lol. Kinda interested in joining this one. They have sub divisions of the clan too. Like [StOrM] Cls or [StOrM] plns. Cls = Crisis Strike and plns = Pain and Suffering. Since they've got so many members, makes sense to have sub groups. Here's what the tag will look like with my name.

[StOrM] - [N]ick My Knickers!!


Thirdly we have -------> r][p` Clan (RIP as in Rest In Peace)

Ahh this one I'm not sure when it came about. Must be quite new I think. NOW THIS ONE, is a clan with STANDARD. Everytime I play a server with their members in it, usually their members are the ones with the top frags. They're pretty quiet when we play unlike storm. Quiet and dangerous. Woo! Sounds wicked! Some members of note are Wing, Unpro5 and some I can't remember. Unpro5 is really a nice person. I've been asking those pros how they shoot so well, and usually they can't be bothered to tell me. But not unpro5! He's nice! Those 2 have defected from Storm to r][p`. Makes you wonder why. Quite interested in joining too. They have trials though and I'm sure it'll be tough. Tag with my name

r][p` <[Nick My Knickers!]>


Lastly, the clan ---------------> dmz! (not sure how it was again.)

Not too sure if I got their clan name right. Don't see them around much but I have a nice friend from there. HFZ. Again, they're like r][p`, quiet quiet. Since I started to play CS, only seen like a couple of them play. Even so, they're like r][p`. Of a very good standard. Maybe even better? Not sure. My interest in this clan is alright I guess. Not very keen but still interested. As I'm not sure how their tag looks like I won't put it with my name.

So, 4 clans which I am interested in. HOW?! I kinda submitted my application for Storm and they sent an email to my inbox telling me to choose a username and password for the storm webpage. I suppose if I reply, I'll be in already. But I've heard "stuff" that they bann innocent gamers. Maybe they were too good for them that's why they thought the ppl were hacking? Or maybe they WERE hacking? We will never know will we. Oh man. r][p` will be hard to get into. So will dmz! =D-X= is a nice clan but not very established yet. I could join, but what if I can enter r][p` and I quit that clan halfway? I'll feel bad for Dexter, since I already turned down his offer once.

Once again, tough tough choice. Sighs... Soon soon!


Patience...

No!

No!

School wasn't really fun today. (But then again, when was school ever fun?) Econs lecturer screamed at us today at our "atrocious attendance." *Shrugs* Oh well, can't help it. It's in the blood I suppose.

Skipped literature tutorial because I haven't prepared my presentation yet and I knew I'd have more time now cause I won't be having an lessons till next week. Yessss. Took the extra time I had to study a bit for GP vocab test. Ahh wished we had more tests like that. Not so stressful. Actually I thought it was quite fun. We should have more more!

Had to sit outside of the classroom during History cause we weren't done with work that was supposed to be handed up long time ago. (Hey, I was planning to do it.) Oh well, at least I managed to finish! Ha, thought it was alright. Wonder how much I'd get. Acks, when that was done, another one came in. Sheesh.

DC called for a short PW meeting. Ahh, I see we (my PW group) have suddenly become serious. (Is that a good thing? Hmm I-) Says group will report anyone found out not doing their work or handing up work on time to our Supervising Tutor (ST) who's most probably going to dish out Insufficient Progress Forms. Sighs. Feeling kinda frustrated now. Was assigned to do work but I have absolutely NO idea how to begin. How to begin "Methodology." Read the PW notes and saw the lecture slides. But it didn't answer HOW to start. Geez. I'm lost. Someone help me please...

I guess I just got to crap something up. Since they're not clear. Don't blame me! I tried doing what I think was right!




You won't like me when I'm angry

I am Born

I am Born.

So yea, haha I'm happy to say I've finally finished my EoM for PW! Yess! But then Cat forgot to bring it, cause she printed it for me. Haha, its ok. Thank you anyway! Friday was a good day. Not just cause it was my birthday but Friday IS a good day!

Oh yea, wait till I tell you what happened on Thursday. I was set not to attend economics tutorial which is the last period of the lesson. In order NOT to attend, I have to NOT attend lecture in the morning, just in case, my tutor is there. (And she was, she was the lecturer herself. PHEW) ALSO, since I wasn't attending any econs related lessons, I could not attend assembly, for she might see me! Haha, so the only lesson I wanted to attend was chinese, BUT DAMN, just as I wanted to attend Chinese lesson, my teacher didn't come. BUMMER. Totally huh? In the end, there was no lessons for me to attend. Might as well not come to school!

You ask me why.
I tell you... It's for me to know and for you to find out yea?

So Friday, Kian Liang gave me this big big pack of pandas! Woot! Thanks man. Hope you see this. Or if you ever do read my blog. THANKS. Basketball for PE was fun, as always. We were divided into three groups. My group was alright. The teams were even spread. Haha but even so, we lost our first game. BECAUSE MR KOH WAS LEFT UNMARK. I should've just jumped at him and commit a foul. Afterall, he can't complain, it is MY birthday. MUAHAHAHA. Saksballs was on JW's team. And everyone thought she's going to be a danger. BUT phew, luckily I was tehre! (Hahaha!) Intercepted passes. Overall it was a nice class game. Played ABC for a bit with Ugin and Saksballs. Ho trashed their ass! (Sorry friends, can't help it, I'm goood. Lol kidding.)

Spent as much time as I could with Cass before I headed home. Got a nice lovely card from her. Appreciated it! Could tell she took time to do it. Thank you! Originally we decided to catch a movie. The Simpsons. However, realised by the time the movie ended, it'd be too late for me. DAMN. So we went to have lunch instead. Wasn't bad, finished up Cass's unfinished dough meal thingy which she couldn't finish. It was nice spending time with her. Afterwards, headed home to slack before going to Night Safari which I presumed it'd be a bit boring.

Got back, then got ready to go Night Safari. Second time going there. Wasn't much to see anyways. Always the usual. Animal show, and tram ride. The tram ride was nice enough. There was a nice nice breeze. OH yea, you know when you are on the tram, they'll always have a person pointing out the different animals on both sides of the trams? Well there was this guy, who had such a nice voice! I didn't believe he was Singaporean. He had such a nice accent! Mm, mum says they have training before they can do this. Wow, I want to speak like him! So soothing! Yea!

Went to this cool shop which had these fluorescent lights. You know, those when you stand underneath, any white part of your shirts or pants or shoes, it'll light up. Like its glowing? Ya that one. Super cool! I know I'm going to have those lights in my room next time. Here it is!


Saw this fat ass hippo. And it was FAT. Really fat. My, wonder how it feels like to smack it real hard. I bet if you slapped the FAT ass hippo hard enough, you'll probably see ripples going through its fat. Lol! What a sight that'll be. Got home around 11+ and slept pretty early cause I was bummed out.

Had PTM (parent-teacher-meeting) today. And couldn't be good. I knew I was right. I was so annoyed with dad. Kept repeating the same thing to the teacher we saw.

"You see ah, Nick is always in front of the computer from 4-12."
"Nick is always online straight after he comes back from school."

Nick this Nick that. Nick has been online for 4-12. Does he have to be so specific? Grr. They went to see Ms Yap (Lit) too. She said I should speak up more often and learn how to seek help. Said I am able to get a B for lit. Really? I must've lost my spark somewhere. On the way to the canteen, Cat passed me my birthday gift. MORE PANDAS! Woot! Haha. THANK YOU AGAIN! HOOT HOOT!

Parents decided to talk to me at the canteen. To really lay down the "plans". What I should do from now to mid course. They weren't really scolding or lecturing me anymore. It's past that since I'm 17 already. Dad already said he won't scold me anymore. Says he's refraining from doing it. Good! Finally... But still, I didn't like what they wanted to me to. Not "want want" but like encourage me to do. Ok I didn't meant to get so upset, I guess I just need time to absorb it. Wasn't really in a good mood after that.

Today's Angela's birthday. And tomorrow's Jiv's birthday. It's a chain birthday for the three of us. The 3rd, 4th, and 5th. haha nice. Should really be off to the bbq now. Oh wells. Kinda lazy. But Cass wants me to be there early. Ok. This is where I end. Oh yea, THANK YOU ALL for the gifts! Tissue papers, foolscap, pandas! Love it all.



Escape...