So Close! So Close!

So Close! So Close!

Ohhh nooo... Mid course is coming!! So quick! Only seven more days! Ahh! I'm scared shitless. What if I fail? What If I retain? Nooo. So scary. So scary. I think the worst is how my parents will react to me failing mid course and not getting promoted to year 2. After all the money they spent on notes and stuff... AND I FAIL THEM!

Aargh. Everyone seems to be studying at home now. Even the people who wants to go to poly next year seem to be studying for mid course. What is this?! I'm doooomed. I'll disappoint my family. I'll disappoint my aunts, uncles, my cousin who's teaching me, teachers from sec school. I'll be ashamed to go back now!

What is happening to me? I didn't use to be like this though. I dunno... I dun have the motivation at all to study. I wonder why. And there's this nagging thought in my head. Keeps me on my toes... Hope I get over that soon. My life's a mess! Even thought about death. I don't count myself as suicidal, just... I dunno. I wonder how life will be like without Nick Oh in the world... Something like that... Yea something...



One And Only

Feat Fall Out Boy


(Timbaland)

I'm head over heels for someone I
that I really cant' deal with
I wanna block her from my mind
but I really can't do it
I tell myself this the last time
Ima let her do this to me
Whenever we do spend time I realize
that I can't get enough of you.

(Bridge)
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my lonely.

(Verse 2)
I wear scarves and hoods cause it's the only poker face that I've got left
And everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm reader's hands
I want to be better than I am.

(Bridge)
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.
[One And Only lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside of I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside of I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my lonely.

(Verse 3)
Girl just look what you done,
How could you do this to me?
I gotta put my foot down,
I can't let you do this to me.
I can't forget those good old times,
and all those things you were doing to me.
I wanna hit that one more time,
I'm in love with what you're doin to me.
Ima say it loud
right, right, left, up in this crowd
Why we arguin'?
I thought me and you were suposta be friends.
Let's chill for a minute,
Better yet, we needta heal for a minute.
Baby, put down the knife,
sometime I wanna save your life...[but I'm coool]

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my lonely.

Describes my mood...