Human Bond

The human bond is a funny thing. It takes a lifetime to build up yet it takes just about one painful moment to wreck that lifetime of work.

Deceit. Disillusionment. Hurt. Disappointment. Resentment. Regret.

I won't beat around the bush anymore.

Dear Casslyn,

Why seek to cheat your own feelings when you're ready to let go already? Why do you even let me believe everything is still the same? Do you think it's still alright to lead me on thinking that we're still very much in love? All that intimacy? Does it mean anything to you? Now I know there wasn't any heart in it...

But why?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

I want to know WHY. Why did you do that? There's so many why's it's cracking my head into 2. There's just this big gaping black hole in my chest right now it's practically sucking away all the happiness around me.

WHY do you only have to break it to me AFTER showering me with all those false happiness? Are you doing it just to spite me?

It takes just that few minutes, that few text messages to topple that 8 years of effort and tears we had together. And I hope you know, it especially hurts when you break it to me after all that falsification. Think of what you're doing, not only you are breaking your bond with me, but with so many others as well. Everyone around us who knew about us...

So why Casslyn why?

It's just so hard to believe, that on that day, all the smiles, laughter, kisses and hugs we shared... All amounted to NOTHING.

Absolutely NOTHING.

Happiness leading to UNHAPPINESS. Ironic.

And you know what the worst part is? You knew what you wanted for this relationship yet you still allowed all the hugs/kisses we had for each other, especially on that day, to happen?

I guess that pretty smile of yours isn't so pretty anymore...

Last Exciting Moments in France

As we speak, (oops I mean as I type) I am eating from a bucket of Haagen Daz. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAgen Daz. Yes! Yes! Be envious of me for I am in France!

Anyway, it's like about 12am when it happened. I decided to try out the LED Copter thingy I bought when we were in Paris. It works like a slingshot. Pull back, release and it shoots upwards. The Blue LED on it reflects onto the 2 fluorescent strip of plastic then rotates when it starts coming downwards and so it looks pretty cool.

My sister and I went outside to find some open space (which wasn't much) to have a shot at it. Mum tagged along with us to have a look-see. Took us a few minutes to actually get it right and when I DID get it right, I accidentally shot it over the fence into our neighbour's yard...

LIKE WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT HAPPENING. Lol actually we all had a feeling that it would end up somewhere. There wasn't really much space outside.

We went around to the front of his yard hoping that there wasn't gate. Unfortunately there was one. An iron gate just below chest height with some green light and and some sort of mini camera inside the pillar next to the gate. I was pretty sure it was an intercom system to communicate with the house since it the house was quite a distance away from the gate itself. Oh did I mention it was pitch dark as well so we couldn't tell if they had some guard dog or not. (The dogs here are HUGE. Like MASSIVE What do they feed them man?!) As I debated with my sis the best way to scale the gate and back, I could hear my mum's worried words.

"Don't lah. Tomorrow morning then come and take. What if got alarm?"

Me: "Nah it's just some intercom system. Eh but what's that yellow alarm signal thingy on top?"

Sis: "No lah, it only lights up when the gates open. It's automatic right?" She takes a look, "Oh it's not."

Me: "Confirm anot!?"

Mum: "Nick, Joy! Don't get Daddy in trouble. Later we get sent back."

It was as if my mother wasn't there at all as my sis and I stood there still thinking of a solution.

"Eureka! We need a chair!"

I think we spent at least 15mins figuring out how to best retrieve the damn thing with my mum fluttering around with disapproving glances and remarks . (Oh why did it have to fly over?) In the end we scrapped the chair idea cause getting over was easy but coming back WITH the chair was hard and we climbed over from the side of the fence since there was some foothold there and we didn't have to worry about some high tech laser defence system guarding the front of the yard. I nimbly jumped over the fence, got the damn shit copter, threw it over and with ninja like agility, I scaled back.

I held up the damn copter and thought to myself, "Wow, now THIS means something now."

Guess my mum was in for something more than she asked for.





MUAHAHAHA.

What I have To live with

This is what I have to live with!



Ahh her iPhone vs my Nokia vintage. Welfare... Welfare.

Ladder-Goat

WATCH THIS. FREAKING HILARIOUS.

Be Water

Be like water making its way through cracks. Do not be assertive, but adjust to the object, and you shall find a way round or through it. If nothing within you stays rigid, outward things will disclose themselves.

Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend.