Just another friggin' day at school

Well school as usual. But god, I only had like four hours of sleep before I went to school. All because I had to stay up online to do my geography project. Sighs. My classmate kept egging me on to stay up past twelve am just to finish three power point slides. So not fun at all. It was nuts. Heck, why did I even choose to take geography? It's weird though. Sometimes I feel that geography would've been better. Then sometimes I believe that history would've been better.

My group for this project was all smarty pants though! I think I was the stupidest amongst them. SIGHS. The geography presentation was crap. I just read from a script all way through. I can't help but feel that my classmates think lowly of me. The only time which I can really show them that I'm good at something is when I have PE or sports related activity. But what's the use? You can't survive with sports in Singapore!

After the period geography was better. Maths and stuff. My maths teacher is so funny. Mr Ma from China. He speaks OK english now. But he's really nice to talk to. Travels quite a lot too! But really, he speaks funnily and has funny things to say. Lol, wish you knew what I mean. He likes to pronounce "problem" as "probrem."

"Now class. Eh listen lah. Let's solve this probrem together as a crass (class)"

Yea that's the way he speaks. It cracks me up all the time! Haha. After school I went to causeway with heelim by taxi. Before that we initially decided to take the bus in front of our school. It was raining and we ran through the rain to the bus stop, and waited there for like 10 mins only to find out that the bus will only come 2 hours later. We were like. IDIOTS. Idiots standing in the rain. We ran back to school like idiots too. All wet for nothing.

At causeway I went in search for my Inuyasha's keychain sword. It's sooo nice! Luckily I found it. The other time I went back they didn't have it. Cost me $7.90 though. But it's so cool. Here's a picture of it. One is Inuyasha's sword Testsuseiga and the other is his brother's Sesshomaru's Tenseiga. Pretty wicked huh?


And here's the other view:


Ooo, shiny and sharp! Muahaha. I wonder where I should clip it. To my key? No no not good. What if the sharp point pierce my groin as I sit down? Imagine that. OUCH! No more father's day for me...

I don't think I'll do any work today. Slacker I am. Heard there's no school on friday anyways. So I hope its true. Sighs... I think I'll collect more anime stuff.

My life is a mess...

I've haven't been doing this for a long time because of things happening in school.

I feel like at this moment in time, my life is kinda messed up now. I don't know what to do, where I should go. School isn't what it used to be like any more. My friends. I don't know. They're different from my previous class. Then again, they're new so I can't compare. But still, I feel as if I'm not part of their "group". All I'm doing in class is put myself in a little corner and stare blankly at the floor. While all my classmates are laughing happily. And to me, I can see they can't really be bothered about me. There are a few of 'em who care and it's nice. Thank you. But I guess it's just me. I can't adapt myself that quickly. Lessons like economics and maths are slowly and painfully killing me.

"Congratulations. You're class has just set the record for the lowest score for your economics assignment."

(All of them then turn their head to look at me at this point) Mrs E, (remember her?) then told me: "Nick I think you should drop economics. Because *looks at my pathetic score* Or you should just change your subject combination"

Sighs... I'm so frustrated. I don't know how to explain this feeling inside of me. Its like there's a well of emotion inside of me, all tangled up together and wanting to burst out of me but can't. The work just keep coming in now. I am starting to feel the stress. I want to yell at the top of my lungs and scream. Scream till my throat go hoarse and I can't speak. Scream till I cough out blood.

Maths is a killer. I need help. All I do now is just sleep in class since I don't understand. I need to do something about it. I need Cass to help me. But just now we had a fight. About trust. Trust is definitely important. Do I trust her enough? Yes I do. But I don't show it. How come? I don't know. I joke with her and... Never mind, its too complicated. But I'm relieved now, we stopped our quarrel. I don't think I can take another blow is something happens to her and me. I don't think I will be able to go on with my life in school if that happens. If she stops talking to me, there's not much people left in school who i really know and I'll feel like a total stranger. I feel like the stupidest kid in school. So what if you got 16 points Nick? So what? They (my classmates) got 14 12 10 9 points... What is 16 points? PATHETIC. You are stupid, Nick, that's why you got a pathetic 6 outta 30 for economics.

I felt so so very sad that day. I felt like I should have cried but I didn't. It would have been more embarrassing. I can't help but feel inferior to my classmates. Am I really not good in anything? Basketball. No I am not good, there are others better. English? No, there's still others. So what other talents do I have? NOTHING. I am a piece of crap. Just lying on the side walk, unimportant. Waiting for people to step all over me.

Did I make the correct choice in choosing JC? Or should I have taken up psychology in a polytechnic? I'm a mess now I am...

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Behold! It's the year of the GOLDEN Pig

Happy happy chinese new year my friends! The year of the golden pig is upon us! May all of you eat more "pok!" (Ello Sir! No pok no pok! Lol kidding. Just playing with ya)

Well. I'm at my grandma's house now. Ain't so bad you know why? Cause there's a wireless broadband here! Muahahahaha. I've been online since 1am till now. Which is exactly 10.41pm. Woo! A fiesta! And isn't there something about staying up as late as possible so that your parents will live a longer life? Well mum, dad. Your noble and filial son is here! TA DA! I'll stay up anytime for you guys... *wink wink* (Nick creeps to the room looking for his laptop smirking)

Hmmm time flies. Another chinese new year is here. My 17th one! Aiee... Don't think this one I will totally enjoy it cause of my DREADFUL skin. It keeps recurring. It's so so so so annoying! Someone save me! I hate my skin. Its so bad. Before this i thought it was recovering, now... SIGHS. AARRRGGHHH! I want to scream!

Oops. I just got back from home. Went back to bathe and stuff. Had my medicine and its making me soooo drowsy. I feel like sleeping but I don't wanna. I wanna play com! You don't get much chances like this! To play to dawn! So yea! Carpe Diem! Seize the Day! Hahaha... Well it's like 4.40am now. Woo. I wonder how long i can stay up till I drop. Let's find out eh? Well there's not much to tlak about. I think I'm gonna play some DOTA. Or I'm gonna fall asleep soon.

YAAWWWWWN

Recollections

So hey peoples! Oops! It's been long hasn't it? hahaha. Sorry, been busy.

So lets back track the days I haven't wrote anything. Let's see... Oh yea, how can I forget? *slaps forehead* The O Levels! My god. I can't believe it. It's like. We've been slogging our asses off for four years and it all comes down to THIS day? This VERY day? This one day? This TWO hours?

* Pause. Blink Blink*

Gosh, that's the reality and its hard to believe it. I was super super nervous! All I could do was just keep shuffling my feet around. But it felt good to be in school again. Saw some of my school mates. Shafizah, (one of my MC partner for the musical) was MC again for a school's performance. Hmm she's getting prettier I must say! Lol... But relax Cass, you're still the one I want! Lol. Then the time came for my results! EEEk!

*Drumroll*

And the top student for this year O levels is.... Roseanne Chan! Sheesh! Like we DIDN'T know already... (13 points lowest. Pathetic isn't it our school?) Next was Ting2... Then they had the 4 distinctions students. Which I am proud to say... is my Casslyn! WOo hoo! Go crazy! Yippee! Oh yea oh yea.. Who's the man? *Points at Cass* She's the MAN. I mean, you know, Da MAN. Yea! Then there came the students with THREE distinctions. Right now, my heart was POUNDING my chest. I pray... AND... IT CAME TRUE! Lol. I was so happy! Got three distinctions! WOohoO! Turned out I had 16 points. I still expected better though. Maybe 14?

English - A2 Literature - A1 (Well DUH) Maths - A2 (Unexpected!) MT - B3 (WOW!)

Lol those were the ones I thought I did well. My science was terrible. C5. But I was happy happy. Parents took us out for dinner. Was wonderful. Thanx mum and dad!

Then the next day was the school's funfair. It was alright. I volunteered myself to be thrown at with pie. Was OK, 'cept for the egg. I didn't like the egg. Smelt terrible! Then there was the Sun. The blazing hot sun, beating down on my neck. Aiee! I was sunburnt! And my skin... Ahh, I look like a total freak! (Or freck! Hahaha) Shit. I looked like chocolate. Mmmm delicious eh? My neck hurt like hell whenever I tried touching it. Even washing it hurt. *whimpers*

Well today, was happy happy as well. Dad got me a new cell! WOW! A K610i. Good phone! *Applauds* Thank you thank you! I would like to thank my parents, who without them, this wouldn't be possible... Blah blah blah. I'm so happy that I'm talking rubbish! Lol... Valentines Day yesterday was cool! I got cass a bracelet with her name on it. Thought it looked nice on her. She got us a pair of couple rings. With our names engraved on it... Aww so sweet! She has my name and I have hers! Lol, 'cept I wear mine around my neck cause... You know.

Today... School wasn't that graet at all. Cass. Sighs... Saw you sitting between two guys, with NO girls. And you were sitting TOO close to one of the guys I think. Didn't like it that's why I wasn't happy today Cass. I know you know I wasn't happy. I just didn't wanna tell you. And... The thing is... You even like... Sighs... Never mind... I'll let it be. But still... Forget it...

No Pork

OMG! I laughed my ass of for this!!! This is a must see! If you are foreign then u might not get the joke...